the album (i.e. 3 track ep) hurtles towards completion and god willing shall be released before the end of 2025. i'm buzzing to finally be able to share it with you all! during a year defined by changes and transitions (ha) it's been one of relatively few things that has remained a consistent presence throughout. nonetheless i think it reflects a lot of that ongoing change. lyrical content, always my weakpoint, has fluctuated a ton as these tracks have taken shape. i guess i'm trying to put a lot of the past 12 months of my life into perspective and using art to do that as the mentally ill so often do.
endings and beginnings. i first "borrowed" the name the girl from blue city in 2019 as i began to truly write music after a few years of learning the guitar. i felt drawn to it at the time for reasons which in hindsight should seem obvious but i still think the pretentious justifications i conjured still kinda stand; aside from being taken from a devin townsend song, i think the phrase evokes a lot of imagery in so few words. a single person juxtaposed against the vastness of a city. an island of life and emotion in a sea of cold concrete.
although the upcoming material is mostly less than a year old, it still feels like the culmination of the five years i've spent chipping away at what the girl from blue city even *is*. so while it represents the ending of that process it's also the formal origin point of another; it's in no small part a mission statement and design document for what i hope the project will be but also it sets out boundaries that i hope the project will eclipse. expectations set to be quickly subverted.
rock n roll!
ava ❤
i've crossed a key threshold in my transition by installing linux on a laptop. it was ubuntu, though, so i don't really win *that* much programmer girl cred but i am probably obligated to get the socks now. it's lowkey given a second life to the fuckass laptop i installed it on, which would historically take minutes to open a browser and minutes longer before it could actually be used. dark times they were. i'm excited to explore what it can do, especially in light of wanting to figure out selfhosting servers. definitely feel like i've been turning into a programmer the past few weeks, between coding the gay little website and now this. and also quake server modding. lots of things happening on the puter ^-^.
nothing to report as to *the album* but i've begun work on a silly little side project which i think will be fun and cool once it's finished so keep an eye out for that ;).
finally getting around to sorting out my gay little website. it's been fun to get back to grips with html and css. haven't really done it since i did my a-levels. six years ago now... eek! i think i'm in a much better state of mind to handle it all though, only mild hiccups so far. :D
this is something i've wanted to do for a while now, just because i like the idea of having my own silly little corner of the internet to share the things i like and the things i make. compared to how social media exists in its current form i like this method a lot more because in a way the medium itself becomes a tool for self-expression, if that makes sense? i'm not limited to picking a profile photo and a banner, i can decorate this space however i want to. even if it looks garbage. especially if it looks garbage. reject convenience, or something like that.
progress on the album is coming along well. two of four of the tracks instrumentals are complete. more or less, given some amount of fiddling which is to be expected with these things. part of me thinks i should try and unify the sound of the tracks a bit more i.e. using a limited set of synth sounds across the entire release. one to try and see how it sounds. still can't write lyrics to save my life, though. grr :(
let's see how things play out from here. to-do's regarding the site include a "releases" page to bring my exhaustive body of work together in a digestible format, a bio page, and maybe a little "what i've been listening to" section, although that probably doesn't warrant a page unto itself.
be well!
ava ❤